=) hello!
well, lots of things happening right now!!
it seems like we are just GO GO GO!
someone wise told me recently,
"...... but busy is good, creative is good too...."
"...... but busy is good, creative is good too...."
in the last 2 weeks ive realized... BUSY is a good friend of mine.
busy makes me stop *thinking*..
(thinking about certain things can litterally put me SMACK into a panic attack...)
(thinking about certain things can litterally put me SMACK into a panic attack...)
busy makes my kids build memories....
(i don't have TIME to stop and worry about everyone elses friggin expections of me and my house and my kids) im just living! and so are they!
(i don't have TIME to stop and worry about everyone elses friggin expections of me and my house and my kids) im just living! and so are they!
busy helps me to not feel lonely...*=)*
(enough said)
busy keeps me demanding the respect i deserve, yep i said DESERVE...
(john, my kids, other people in my life, i know i deserve respect, and appreciation & NOT to be taken for granted. PERIOD. and it is about time i start standing up to some of the BULLYs in MY life, or everything i preach to macieis just empty words.)
Busy helps the things that are said from soooo many, that try to beat me down emotionally, to keep control over certain things, it keeps those things from being repeated over and over in my head.
...but on the same hand...
busy helps my remember those things too, as to NOT lose sight of who i AM, and who i want to be..
"...Who are you to tell me that im LESS than what i SHOULD be??..I don't need to listen to a list of things i should be, or a list of things i should do....." Barlow Girls song.. that is better wording than I could ever come up with.
Busy keeps me on my toes with the world that my kids see through THEIR eyes. i get ONE shot at protecting them. I get ONE shot to show them the way they need to DEMAND to be treated by the world, their kids, their spouses.
And last... being creative. hmm.. this just simply helps my mind go blank... and all i think about is colors, textures, sizes, cuts, patterns, peices, prints, etc... and i get to hide out in my brain and daydream.. thats always **NICE! **
(enough said)
busy keeps me demanding the respect i deserve, yep i said DESERVE...
(john, my kids, other people in my life, i know i deserve respect, and appreciation & NOT to be taken for granted. PERIOD. and it is about time i start standing up to some of the BULLYs in MY life, or everything i preach to macieis just empty words.)
Busy helps the things that are said from soooo many, that try to beat me down emotionally, to keep control over certain things, it keeps those things from being repeated over and over in my head.
...but on the same hand...
busy helps my remember those things too, as to NOT lose sight of who i AM, and who i want to be..
"...Who are you to tell me that im LESS than what i SHOULD be??..I don't need to listen to a list of things i should be, or a list of things i should do....." Barlow Girls song.. that is better wording than I could ever come up with.
Busy keeps me on my toes with the world that my kids see through THEIR eyes. i get ONE shot at protecting them. I get ONE shot to show them the way they need to DEMAND to be treated by the world, their kids, their spouses.
And last... being creative. hmm.. this just simply helps my mind go blank... and all i think about is colors, textures, sizes, cuts, patterns, peices, prints, etc... and i get to hide out in my brain and daydream.. thats always **NICE! **
Lots of things changing!
even in the last 24 hours...
It is just crazy how one thing....... leads to another,
and then another.....
and then you find yourself making decisions that....
you would normally have...
waited 20 years to make.
even in the last 24 hours...
It is just crazy how one thing....... leads to another,
and then another.....
and then you find yourself making decisions that....
you would normally have...
waited 20 years to make.
OR HOW a conversation with one person can bring sooo much clarity..... but then another conversation with a different person can open up 500 unanswered questions......
XOXO
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